Melissa Kaylene: The Beach // Reflections

Sunday, April 7, 2013

The Beach // Reflections

It's been a rough week.
I've been debating whether or not to mention anything, because as of right now only our closest family and friends know -
but Monday (yes, April Fool's Day) my husband was 'permanently' laid off.
The company he worked for decided that they would slowly get rid of their staff, and bring in a management company. Needless to say, my husband, the manager, was first to go.
This was a huge shock to us all, but unfortunately one that I am familiar with.
In 2007 something similar happened with a company my husband was working for (he is a vineyard manager) and I guess I should be a little more understanding, vineyards sell, owners change, but the last go around was a very challenging year emotionally and financially.
I don't want that to happen again.
To top that off half of the family came down with a nasty stomach bug that took days to recover.
Prior to this hectic week we had booked a yurt at Devil's Lake State Park. It's close to the beach, and seemed like a nice little get-a-way at the time...
but everything from this weeks events just had everyone on edge; my eldest daughter has a difficult time with things out of her routine anyways, and everything/everyone fell apart today.
We all had a little meltdown in our own way.
It probably didn't help that the weather was stormy, cold, windy, rainy. We had about a 20 minute gap to visit the beach.
Things will get better, there is no choice. It's not the end of the world, but I dread having to work more long hours and missing out on time at home.
I have to have faith right now, which is something I struggle with, because I want to try and fix things, solve everything, make it all okay. And sometimes I just have to learn to let it be. Let my husband do the best he can. Realize that this will set us back, again. And just have faith.
Faith is a scary, terrifying feeling for me. To let go of control. But I know, right now, its what I need to do.


  1. faith is HARD. But just remember, that you aren't in any of this stuff alone.

  2. I understand your fears, but getting to the point where we feel at the end of ourselves is sometimes the best to show us indeed that we cannot control or fix everything. That is the perfect place to let your faith in God grow, because what is IMpossible, is HIMpossible. I am dealing with this in my own life as well. Obstacles are sometimes overwhelming, but when God brings you to something, He will bring you through it. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. It is the darkness in the tunnel that scares us, but hang on, the light of the morning is just a little while away.

  3. Your pictures are absolutely gorgeous and those nails are to die for! So sorry to hear about your husband. What an awful thing to go through, especially with a family! My thoughts and prayers go to you and your family during this difficult time. I know it is not easy to see now, but everything truly happens for a reason. God has a plan, and He will find a way to get you through it! Best of luck! Now following via GFC from the linkup!

  4. Melissa,

    Just moved back home from Colorado. I am a Portland/SW Washington girl at heart. I have been looking for some other bloggers in the area to connect with and maybe start a group if there isn't already one. Please contact me. I like the relaxed and easy going nature of your blog. It is a breath of fresh air and thank you for showing me the beach again. I need to go asap now!

    Angela @

    1. Hi Melissa and Angela!
      I too am a PDX/SW WA girl and would love to be connected with fellow bloggers in the area! :)

      I'm sorry to hear about your hubby's job. But good things happen to good people and even if it is difficult to see right now, this too shall pass.

      Glad you got a moment of clarity at the beach. Nothing more refreshing than a brisk walk on the Pacific Coast.

      It's nice meeting you! Following you both now. :)


    2. Thank you ladies SO much for your encouraging words! I am very excited to meet others out there close by to connect with! Heading over to check out your blogs now, and if either of you would like to chat more feel free to email me: :)

  5. I am so sorry this has happened to your family. I just went through a similar situation. My husband was laid off in January. We moved from my hometown 8 hours away for this job and then he got laid off only 9 months later. Very depressing! I had the same mentality though. I just had faith that things would work out and finally today he got a job offer. I know that it will work out for your family as well! Keeping you in my thoughts! xo

    1. So glad he received a job offer! It must have been very tough to make such big move for a job to then have everything fall through afterwards. I hope your husbands new job will work out well! Thanks for the encouragement. :)