Have you ever held all of your feelings in? I used to do it all of the time. I used to be a bottle of anxiety that was just ready to explode. I never talk about it, but when I was a teenager I had so much worry, self doubt, and fear within myself that I had no idea how to manage. I was able to hold down a job at McDonald's, but I literally felt like I was standing up in front of a crowd whenever I had to talk to someone. My stomach would tighten, palms begin sweating, heart started racing, and I would replay every thing I was going to tell that person over and over in my head and couldn't actually speak the words I wanted to say.
Thank goodness I was able to learn to love myself more, care less of what other's thought, and be brave. I think that all of this may have never happened had I not gotten pregnant so young.
Everything happens for a reason.
I knew I had to overcome all of my self doubt and worries to care for my child.
I was scared.
I became a CNA while I was 17 and pregnant which was a career that involved so much human interaction. It wasn't easy. But I very slowly began to have more confidence in myself.
I still am generally a quiet person until I get comfortable and familiar with people. I listen more than I speak. I still bite my tongue sometimes, but am so proud of myself when I reflect back to what I overcame.
Can you put your fears aside, say what you want to say, and move on? In the end, all that really matters is that you lived a life that you loved.
Tell me, how big is your brave?